i’ve been in st.louis for almost 3 weeks.
i’m pretty sad that i’m going to be leaving soon, as i don’t want to. i’ve never felt this way before, about anything, nor anyone. i guess if what they say is true, things will come out the way they are meant to be. i’m sitting on billingsley bed drinking merlot, a whole bottle, so excuse me if my writing may not sound so put together, or punctuated correctly. i care the world for this boy, as i have since the day we met over a year ago in new orleans. we have got closer and closer even being miles away, and i had found the dearest friend i’ve ever grown to know, or even love. He has brought more happiness in my life, then even brody. yeah, i said it. finally someone has a bigger influence on me than brody. i would of never have guessed that. would you? He is the only sole person on this earth i feel comfortable saying anything to.. i don’t get embarrassed, nor worried for i know he would never judge me. i do know he too has had some heartache, which i know hurts more than anything in this world.
i know he loves me, and i know he does care, but i still wonder.. wonder what truly goes on in his head, and what truly he wants in his life. i’m proud of all he has accomplished as of lately, tho its not what he really wants, he’s still doing the right thing with school, and taking satop classes.
this boy has made me the happiest girl in the world, and i’m very fortunate of the time i’ve gotten to spend with him, and tho i wish it would never end, things always end, right? maybe, maybe not. time will tell .
blah, i’m getting tipsy, and i need more merlot… later
It’s been a good while since i’ve used tumblr. I’m currently in Brooklyn, NY, and I
Didn’t brings laptop with me, so obviously I can’t make that many post. Just wanting everyone to know, that I’m alive and well, and see some of you soon!
your talk is cheap, your lies are weak,
so hold your breath, don’t even speak.
you’re a liar. you liar.
you make dirt mounds mountains,
raindrops fountains, small problems big.
i can do without your problems, you’re a problem
you’re desperate at best, all you do is complain.
i apologize for all the times i tried to help in any way.
and oh, did i mention your cries for attention are driving me insane?
your talk is cheap, your lies are weak,
so hold your breath, don’t even speak.
you’re a liar. you liar.
you make dirt mounds mountains,
raindrops fountains, small problems big.
i can do without your problems, you’re a problem
so lately I’ve mainly been looking back,
to these past things, the past brings, and how the few should act (?)
no one notices your issues, they don’t even make a mark.
just these stupid things that you bring like shadows in the dark.
so while you’re running your mouth, and saying things that aren’t true,
i’ll sit back and relax and realize how worthless i am, just for you.
all i’ll say is this is the end of what we had.
sincerely, your best friend.
i just got a new charger for my laptop, and now i can start using my tumblr again.
i’m heading to Nola in a day or so, and i couldn’t be more happier. Austin was fun for the most part. Not sure whats next after Nola, but i have a few options, so thats always good. i miss zoe, and kristen. i need to really see the both of them soon.
a lot of crazy things have been happening as of late, but right now i really just don’t feel like discussing them with the world of tumblr, but i will deff be trying to freqent this site again. <3 until next time, may the force be with you!
kinda really do.
yes <3
austin by the weekend.
Thank you for being there for me. You are really one of my 2 best friends. I wish I had met you before I had met Billy, maybe things would be different. I’m sorry I can’t stay alive for you or be attached to you the way you are to me. I had that ruined for me before we became friends.
I’ve had such a good time with you and you are so much fun. I hope you find a guy who won’t treat you like shit. I know you can. You deserve better.
I love you.
i think i’m going to cry a million times tonight. no, please. i hurt so much right now.
i were in oregon with you right now. i miss you so much, and i’ll never see you again. i hope you see a lot of fireworks, and that your final hours will be painless. I love you so fucking much, Jimi.
when life throws us a curve ball, its meant to be missed; for when that curved ball is missed, something better happens.
shes gross. you’re gross. have fun with each other
mean muggin. <3
i find it funny how things play out. i’m currently in the valley visiting family, and then heading back to the woodlands, and then austin. i’m pretty stoked for a few reasons. I’ll be staying with Carrie, who i’ve missed ever so much. I’m going to put in a few job apps, and see where it gets me. I need a job, and a new car, so i’ll just cross my fingers that something will come up.
oh yeah, i’m happy. really fucking happy. at least for the time being.
I said i’m okay, but i know how to lie.
i’m not okay.
